When Comforting Foods are Necessary

Oh hi.

I gotta tell you, I’m feeling a little down and out tonight.  But I thought that blogging would make me feel better. Ya know, keep my mind busy.

Let’s start with the eats and then we’ll go into the not so good parts.

For breakfast, I had a ‘naner while driving to work. I don’t know if that’s weird or not. It’s a kind of awkward thing to eat while driving.

When I got to work, I had another bowl of “organic cinnamon toast crunch” with almond milk. Soo good..I felt like a little kid.

Lunch was a PB+J on a deli flat with some strawberries on the side.   Picture must have disappeared into thin air.

Snack was one of these bad larries

It was my first time trying this flavahh…success!

Also, I just realized that this is the second kid-targeted food I ate today. Totally fine.

I left work early to go to my gastroenterologist appointment.  I don’t want to go into too much detail, but I didn’t recieve the greatest news ever. I’ve been feeling sick lately, as you know, so they did a bunch of tests and all that.  They thought I might have a bacteria, so that’s primarily what they were looking for.

Well, good news – they didn’t find a bacteria.  Maybe just one of my IBS flareups.

Not so good news – they did find something else. Apparently, I tested positive for h.pylori, which is some sort of infection that lives in your g.i. tract (?).

I don’t know much about this, but I guess many people can have it and have no syptoms or complications at all.

But, in the smaller population that does have symptoms and complications, they can be pretty bad – gastritis, ulcers, and even stomach cancer.

My docs just want to treat it to get it out of my system, which is done through a regimen of antibiotics and other meds.  It definitely could be worse, but I hate taking meds, specifically antibiotics, because of how they make me feel, so I am not excited about taking 4 new meds on top of the regular stomach meds I already take, even if it is only for 10 days.  The dr. basically told me it’s going to get worse before it gets better.  So now I’m just trying to mentally prepare myself to be sick and feel gross for the next 10 days.

I also apparently had pretty low blood pressure when I was there, which they were a little concerned about, so I had to go the lab to get tests for that too! 

I was there alone and it was very overwhelming to hear all this. The doc had all these handouts she printed out for me, and my handful of prescriptions. I was glad she was so prepared, but it also made it seem so intimidating!

Oddly enough, when I got out of the hospital, I felt starving, so I had my go-to snack

When it was time for dinner, I wanted something comforting and yummy, but I didn’t want to do anything for it. 

Whole Foods salad bar it is!

I honestly can’t even tell you what was in this; I have no idea. I just started grabbing what looked good, and went with it.  I liked that I didn’t have any lettuce though. I often want a salad, but don’t want lettuce. Is that weird?  I had a quinoa base instead. YUM.

I also had it w/ a nice slab o’ bread. I told you I wanted to be comforted.

And I treated myself to one of these, which I LOVE

The food was good and helped.  But I still just feel really down. I’m frustrated because I feel like I’ve been trying so hard to be healthy and then this happens.  But apparently, I could have had this for most of my life, and I didn’t even know!  I think I’m just really anxious about how I’m going to feel while taking all the meds. It stinks the most because the past few days I’ve felt a lot better, but getting rid of the h.pylori is more of a precautionary thing than anything else.  Which I totally get. It just sucks that I was feeling better, and now I’m most likely going to feel a lot worse.

Boo.    Ok, I’m sorry for the depressing post.  I just needed to get it all out there. 

It’s definitely time to fill my brain with an episode of real world.  If that doesn’t help, I don’t know what will. 

love

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